Urgh, I think I'll die from over abundance of assignments this semester ...

I mean, yeah, I had 5 subjects per/semester back then, but at least there were more theories than practical. This semester, practically 4 of the subjects I took was like, MAJOR practical and programming.

I caught a nasty flu cause my sleep time was distraughted, and my parents yelled at me for not sleeping well. Maybe I should ask them, "Well, how would YOU like to take my place and do my assignments for me so I can sleep well, hmm?"

Gawd, I'm sick of them constantly thinking that studying is like a breeze. No doubt, the studying part is, but not the freakin' assignments.

Sometimes they do not know how to see the whole thing, the big picture. It practically just pisses me off trying to educate them, but what goes in just comes out through the other ear, honestly, why do I even bother?

Sigh, I feel like suiciding from this madness ...

As the days passed and my withered soul throws itself away into a dark and dank place, I find myself rather riveted by its gloom and shade that brings what seemed to be comfort.

Enough with the chitter-chatter. I am always thinking that I have been trying too hard to achieve what seemed to be a goal which I could grasp with my hands, but alas, it was not to my liking. I had intended to be on the top of my game, but guess it was not meant to be.

My dying dreams, my wasted efforts, my longing glory - they have been a waste of my time.

Thanks for all he good times peeps, it was fun knowing you guys at Blueserver. It is high time I packed my bags and leave that place for good, and I mean it.

Although those ups and downs were not as, how do I put it, astonishing as I had expected, it was still, the best of times, be it good or bad.

Regretably, like most of the veterans of Blueserver, I will be leaving it for good. +1 to a permanent leaver for Blueserver, cheerio.

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