Food. Food. Food.

That's the first (three) things that came to my mind when I was told if I would like to go on a one day road trip to Penang. Other than another intention of helping out another Bro, I thought it'll be nice to have a day off and splurging on food to take my mind off of stressing matters.

The day begins at 7. Waking up that early is definitely something I hardly do often, let alone have the discipline to do. After scrambling for the phone where Shalom called to make sure I was getting out of bed, I head on to the showers.

Daniel came to pick me up at about 7.15 or so and we left to Centerpoint's McDonald's, where we all had our breakfast. Daniel parked his car at said place and we hoped on over to Martin's car.

There, the 5 of us - Daniel, Martin, Shalom, Ken and I began our trip to Penang. Not a tight squeeze at first since the 3 skinny dudes are seated at the back. Well, nothing much happened in the car aside from the usual stuff.

We arrived in the shores of Penang island (as in, after the bridge) at about 1 or so, just in time for lunch. We were to meet with Charis, as she would be more familiar with Penang than any of us blokes from PJ would. Though, the only advantage I have in Penang is that I can speak basic Hokkien.

Our first stop after Charis joined us was at a hawker site that was famous for their Char Koay Teow. We all had a serving of it and I must say, it's been a long time since I had the taste of Penang's version of that dish and yes, it's good. Accompanied by drinks, I ordered Nutmeg juice and everyone decided to follow in the notion, since I made the order in Hokkien.

So after our first round of food indulgence, we thought of trying out the other spot where Charis had mentioned to be also a good spot for Char Koay Teow. Yeah, I guess people might be thinking we're crazy for going on a second round but heck, we're the tourist. So we went over to the shop, find ourselves a seat and went to order. It was true to its name for being popular, the attendant told us we had to wait an hour for the dish to be prepared. Whoa!

Decided not to waste our limited time at Penang, I suggested we went to try the famous Cendol over at Lebuh Keng Kwee. I was rather lucky to tell my forgetful self to note the road where my last trip to Penang had taken place about a few months back.

We came and we had our fill of Cendol, though they were missing a few ingredients in it. There was suppose to be leong fun and Sarsaparilla in it, which I'm sure would've been used up or something because I'm very keen on how stuff like these would taste. Semi-disappointed, we left and head to our next destination - the Botanical Gardens in Penang.

It was weird how 5 guys and a girl went all the way to this side of the island just to see monkeys ... beats me either but oh well. After having a stroll in this reserve, we decided to chill out at a Starbucks. Martin asks for suggestions on where we could find one, since it's scarce in Penang. I remembered there was one that was nearby the Gurney Hotel or rather, within Gurney Plaza itself.

We made it there and Starbucks was full, so we took the next best option - Coffee Bean. We sit and chillax for awhile before moving on to our next eatery. Seeing we're all here for the local hawkers and at that time, it was about 4 and most hawkers are either closing up or just starting to setup for dinner and we needed to kill time before having dinner.

While we were chatting and having a cuppa, the wind started to blow violently. It was one of the most windiest experience I've encountered in Penang. We were having coffee al fresco and at that time we thought it was best that we made our way into the mall from having our hair blown into smithereens!

We explored a little in the mall and managed to kill as much time as we could. It was about 7 before we left for an eatery that Charis said to have a numerous amount of choices. It was called the Red Garden, a food court of some kind. Making it our last eatery spot for the day, we decided to order various of dishes such as Ikan Bakar, Hokkien Mee (Prawn Mee), Oh Chien (Fried Egg and Oysters) including Assam Laksa.

It was pure indulgence, though wasn't as good as the usual spots I know in Penang but it would have to do. After we had all stuffed ourselves, we thought about going somewhere before we call it a day. I was thirsty after all that eating and suggested to go somewhere we can go to have a drink and sit down to talk some more.

I was rather amazed at the fact that Penang has a street filled with clubs, pubs and lounges. Night life is booming even in Penang, gotta salute to that. We had a cup of Paulaner, which was another brew that was foreign to me and chatted as we go.

About half passed 10, we decided to take a leave. There was but one more thing I haven't had in Penang along the trip, which was the Chee Cheong Fun. Everyone spotted a Chee Cheong Fun stall but I was rather full from the brew that I couldn't have another bite of anything.

As we bid farewell to Charis and leave the shores, we were on our way back to PJ. It would've been nice if we could have food brought back but we know what would happen if we did ...

Till the day we meet again, Char Koay Teow, Assam Laksa, Hokkien Mee and everything else in between.

We all know how much censorship is imposed in almost every type of media in Malaysia. From sexual intent or hint to cursing, there has to be a limit to how much of it can be allowed and in most countries, there's a limit that is imposed and have been used as a stature to follow by that hasn't changed for awhile, not if something extremely impacting happens which may allow for action to be taken.

Sadly, this censorship does not apply to Malaysia. Almost every single year, the censorship just gets worse. Back in the days, when I listen to music on the radio, the only words that were censored was like shit, fuck and other really offensive words. That is acceptable, even the airwaves on other countries would do this, completely acceptable.

Let me highlight a couple of songs that had the most ridiculous words being censored away while it was aired over not just on Hitz.fm, who Plays today's Hit music and Nothing but the Hits but also Mix FM which are considered to be the 'Power House' music stations that play a lot of International music. To have them censor these songs, you'd be going "What in-tarnation are these bleepin' about?"

First song :: Train - Hey Soul Sister

As far as I'm concern, no cursing or swearing, or sexual implications were in the composition of this song. So let me tell you which parts they censored. The default lyrics look like this:

Like a virgin, you're Madonna

Watchin' you is the only drug I need

What happens when it's being aired over Hitz or Mix? This is what you'll hear:

Like a verdverd, you're Madonna

Watchin' you is the only rugd I need

Seriously. Virgin? Drug? Are they offensive to you? The funniest thing about the censorship of the latter word is that Hitz does play Ke$ha's song, Your Love Is My Drug without censoring that word. Talk about ridiculous censorship much?

I wonder what must be going on through the censorship committee.

"I think we should censor this word from this song, it's offensive to me. We should protect the innocence of our children, censor them now!"

*Facepalms*

Second song :: Ke$ha - Take It Off

Okay, so Ke$ha sounds like she's always tipsy in her songs, that doesn't mean she'd just blurt shit out in her lyrics but guess what, there's a censorship imposed in this song! Check out the following original lyrics:

Got a bottle full of whisky in my handbag

So what does it sound like aired over Hitz.fm?

Got a bottle full of wuwu in my handbag

What the flippin' #$%^? Whisky? Honestly, the censorship committee should be shot dead. Oh wait, there's another song too, remember 3oh!3's song featuring Ke$ha, My First Kiss? Here's the original lyrics:

Your kiss is like whisky, it gets me drunk

And what it sounds like after their freakin' tempering:

Your kiss is like zootzoot, it gets me drunk

I'd like a glass of zootzoot too so I'd get drunk enough to forget how stupid you guys are.

It's not just the radios, even Astro has been affected by these stupid censorship. Honestly, if they're gonna keep censoring everything that is 'bad' to them, might as well ban the shows.

I can't go on watching 14 minutes of Family Guy on FOX over Astro, without it being censored for about half of the show. Might as well not even have that segment in at all, ain't it? Again, who the fuck that makes the censorship committee? You guys are seriously retarded.

Just like any other ordinary lunch hours that I went to have with my colleagues today, something different is about to happen but I bet you saw this coming when I start posting, lol.

Anyway, like most other lunch hours, my diet is comprised of mainly rice to top of veggies and meat. We went to a small little store just across from my office block. I had mixed rice (or economy rice), which is known in Cantonese as Chap Fan today and noticed one of the dishes available to offer.

It was fried ham that was in blocked shape, usually served from canned goods, just like this one.



I quickly took two pieces of it, happily walking back to the seats with my colleagues and as I thought to myself, how much I actually missed the times when my mom used to cook.

Reminiscing about the past can always bring back smiles, if the memories were good ones that is. It's funny how fried ham that came from tin cans could cheer me up, and the slightest memory was good enough to brighten my day. These little moments are hard to come by and I'm glad I get the chance to experience them.

It's just passed frustrating. I think to myself, "Why am I suffering so much just to be condemned at the end of the day?". "Wouldn't it be much better if I could just die and leave all my cares behind me?".

Those thoughts buzzing through my head constantly. It never stops haunting me no matter how much I try to deny it.

I may only be 23 years of age but I have seen too much to just let myself go by as a 'newbie' and constantly be 'challenged' by how much force I can take.

The most depressing thing about anyone's life is that no one would acknowledge that person's struggle until they are dead or otherwise left nothing but memories of what was once their existence in life. It all boils down to understanding. Is it so hard today, for even people to start acknowledging the things around them?

I'm really really sick of everything. I'm so sick of this new transition in life. I'm so sick that I even have to work off hours. I'm so sick of constantly having to go to the office. I'm so sick that some people don't understand the amount of pressure and stress I go through everyday.

Working life is just a major detour in my life, and boy have this ride gotten bumpy. I was hired as a copywriter, yet I still do odds and ends which yes, my skill in these 'odds and ends' are slower than an average person. I major in typing, pure typing! I don't have expertise in extricating from a source, then paste it in HTML, java, aspx or whatever web language out there in the fastest of means. I'm slow, deal with it! I'm trying my best to speed it up, nothing works! Yet I'm being flurried off and constantly being squashed on a lot of duties. FUCK IT.

I take pride in what I do but this time, I've drawn my last straw. I'm not really doing what I like in overall. I'm a writer, not a freakin' clerk or a desk boy cum amateur designer cum web maintenance guy cum copywriter. NO!

Just to meet deadlines, I even have to work from home. The lack of sleep and rest on weekdays are calling for more fatigue and anxiety attacks on me. I really can't fucking take all these shit all at once.

I swear, if I had to do my work from the comforts of home constantly, I am much more productive in that sense. Or maybe, the place I'm working at I just can't do much besides staring at my PC and the most, surf the web/Facebook/Twitter whatever. I'm deprived of having any life at all.

Even if I could come back from work early, I have left less than 5 hours to - eat, socialise, free gaming period. That isn't enough and I can't always compromise my sleeping hours for it. My only off time is weekends and the extra hours I have are spent on just sleep. I'm not the workaholic kind and I don't want to constantly have work in front of my face 24/7.

What adds to all this bullshit is that some people don't understand the stress I have. These few people always think I may have it all and that I don't show any hint that I'm in a fucking load full of stress and depression is because I don't want to involve you in this and yet you continue to poke me more often by ADDING more stress on me. Yeah, I'm seriously fucking pissed at all of you who did this to me.

Firstly, I wish someone somewhere somehow would get it through my mom's thick skull that I'm not exactly living in luxury and that I can handle things on my own, eventually. Stress from work is already enough to make me want to shout to the heavens, I don't need you to come nag at me for fuck sake. Though I may handle things at my own pace and you might not like it, screw off! It's my fucking life, don't tell me what to do. I'm not fucking 8 years old, I can handle myself.

Secondly, I wish that some people would stop boasting their ego and keep their selves so reserved that you shun the world from you. Dude, being too cautious only makes you lose out more than you bargain for you shallow and pathetic faggot. Just because you forge a name for you and the guild you are in doesn't make YOU any better than those fucked up guilds out there. Your mentality sucks, grow 2 fucking balls man.

I had to squeeze in as much time as I can to just finish this entry. Oh wait, I just remembered something - I've still got work to do (and I'm back at home to boot!). If anyone wants to take my life, feel free to do so, you'll be ending my misery.

CabalSEA. It never gets old *shrugs*

Even after earning the title, it seems like I have yet to achieve everything that I wanted, though with most would be their final achievement in this game. Giving up the title is no longer an option - there was a limit as to how much I can pimp my FS.

I still keep my FB as the main entrée and perhaps someday, I'll kick my FS back to high gear when I can afford to but for now, let the others have a taste of power. I'll get what's mine again, eventually.



I'm going to miss that healthy glow ...

I had an ultimatum with my dad before. It was not to my liking, but it had to happen. Regretting every single day that things had to unfold in such a way but at the very least, he knew it was his time to give up, give in. Having lost my father had affected me deeper than I would have thought. I know I'm strong enough to brace the coming storm of life's hardship, but I knew nothing of it.

I can probably cope with the changes in life for me now - I'm no longer studying, I've washed my hands off of it and I'm currently working. I'm fairly new to things, I hate the stress but am loving the new experience I get. After all, I love new things. In order for anyone to discover something new, going to places they won't usually go and making mistake from it, one has to be prone to danger and the challenges up ahead. I'm willing to take the heat, given the chance that is.

My mum has always been overprotective. There has to be a time where parents have to let go of their children, eventually. Sad to say, I won't walk down that same path like most children would. I'm an outcast. I'll be shun for the things I do, but it would have been worth it if it were to prove so many silenced statements.

I can't, no I won't take this any more. I will make a firm stand that I will relinquish myself of the burden I have succumb to bear that wasn't mean to happen in the first place. I will not tolerate your total hindrance of acceptance. I will not tolerate your selfish indulgence on lashing your emotional feud on me. I will not tolerate any more constraint that you impose unto me. I will not tolerate you any further.

From 2011 onwards, I will no longer see you. Call me selfish, call me wicked, call me cruel for all that you want but I will no longer consider you as my emotional and filial obligation.

I will move on in life, while you stay stagnant here. I won't let you hold me back because you think it feels right for you. Things happen for a reason, things change and if you can't accept that then you should very well just shrivel up and die on your own.

Dad died, we all know that. We can't turn back time and bring him back, God knows how much both sis and I would want to. He holds us together when things are beginning to fall apart, but he's no longer here, accept the fact. It's not your job to keep this family together, even if it is, you're not doing a good job so stop it before you hurt us more than you already did.

I'm making my stand, since you will never listen to us. Yes. I'm walking out on you because you chose to be selfish about things. I couldn't be fucked to care about it any more, you're about to make me go insane. It's time to say goodbye.

Dreaming big, aiming high would take your ambitions to greater heights. Though as you go higher and your dreams are fabulous, the price you pay when you fall would also be equivalently as big.

Sometimes I wondered why I dream and want for more. It's in our nature to want more and achieve greater heights in life. There's just no point in aiming so high only to see yourself fall.

In any case, perhaps it's time for me to let go of it all. All the endless struggles and battles I face were all meant for nothing now.

This blog post is especially dedicated to my life in CabalSEA. For all the happiness I've faced, now comes all the hardship that mounts throughout the years. My life in CabalSEA started off with my real life friends and ending without them.

To cut things short, there are so many reasons as to why this has become the inevitable end.

Playing games like this, I always emphasize on both achieving greatness and achieving friends. A little far-fetched but hey, some people were able to achieve this. I thought I could have a shot at this, guess not.

I've gone through so many guilds and sadly, none of which brought me closer to achieving greatness, nor friendship. I'm not saying I didn't make friends along the way, to me, having 'friends' is more personal than what most people would consider it to be. I take each and every one of these relationships to the heart. One false move, and it'll be my emotions that will be tangled upon.

LasNoches, though with so many powerful and famous players in it, I never found happiness. I was blinded by my constant denial of giving things the benefit of the doubt, but it was nothing more than an empty mirage to convince myself that things could get better.

What's the point of being in a guild when everyone in it is just going to do things on their own? Where's the love?

Though friendship was formed long along by some, newcomers do deserve the chance to be part of if not at all in the circles of friendship. I find that hardly happening in LasNoches, sadly.

Guild motto: We Love, United and Strong LasNoches! Pfft. Well, strong is right but I highly doubt it's anywhere near love and united. It's just plain deceiving. It's a guild, but there's so many cliques that it makes communication scarce, or even rare. The strong stays amongst their own kin. The weak just comes abound when there are scraps of 'leftovers' for us to indulge on. We're not beggars, we're not some street junky and hell, we're not going to tolerate your social deficit sense of discrimination.

All that work for nothing. All the things I've done, were all meant for nothing. This is the very last time I would be saying this, I'm leaving LasNoches for good. I will no longer associate myself with the likes of them. From therein and from when the server comes back on, I'm no longer a member of CabalSEA's LasNoches.

I seriously, cannot take it anymore.

The passed few rants for my blog has been all about work, this one no less. Nothing in my life has caused so much blood boil till today.

Like I mentioned, it was bad enough I had to do web maintenance and editing of websites but now I have to do it on a line whereby I can't even load images properly. What The Fuck?

CMS is soooooo graphical to the point loading it takes ages. When I tried saving from time to time, my login expires. Seriously, this is so fucked up. The reason I had to use the crawling ISP, iZZi is because our interns are using the only cables available for TMNet. I can't believe I have to resort to using my OWN LAN cable just to share the line.

I'm not asking much, in fact now I even only consider wanting to use TM rather than iZZi for job performance, and nothing else. GAH! Why do I have to put up with this! Screw the economy, screw the people who started making 'needs' to 'wants', screw it all!

I'm already squeezing in what's left of my petty time to put together this post. I seriously on the edge of madness right now. Help?

Maybe I'm just being sensitive or maybe I've done too much to go by and let it be taken for granted.

I'm no Superman nor am I Bill Clinton but a simple "Gee Kev, thanks for doing so-and-so for me, I truly appreciate it" would definitely suffice. Not that I'm hoping for something in return but hey, it won't kill for people to show some gratitude from time to time, no?

I'm super frustrated at the fact that sometimes I tend to do stuff and I'm not given enough attention for something I worked to make it the best it can be. I placed my heart and soul to do stuff for people and what did I get? Nothing.

I feel like just letting it go and forget about putting my effort into doing something and just do a half-passed six job just because you are not going to appreciate it anyway.

Looks like I've gotten more than what I've bargained for.

It is pretty true what they say about working. You either have nothing to do or you'd be stressed out at how much shit you have to put up with.

Maybe it is my personality. I hate being stuck or staying stagnant and when I hit a block, I would be upset over the fact that I can't keep moving. I feel exactly like that now. I'm presented with too much obstacles that I clearly can't overcome.

Everyone has a choice to make. Either choose to overcome the obstacle or to turn away from it. I falter to the latter, sooner or later.

I thought I'd be staying true to my job as a copywriter, but no less I find myself wandering in a web of multitasking, or rather, over-tasking.

It's been almost 2 months I've started working with my company. With all due respect, I have nothing against the pressure as the company is very easy going and linear in other aspects of the work ethics other than job scope. I'm being hired as a copywriter but that is far from my own practise.

In a percentage of duties I do in work, I would say copywriting is represented by 20% of the entire fraction. Web content management takes a whooping 60% of my work time and the other 20% goes to clientèle. I just don't think that's how I'm suppose to be conducted as. Seriously, if I'm hired to do a job that is not within my job scope, I feel the zest of outdoing myself in that specific scope beginning to subside and become a drone of economy. Heck, I'm even losing my writer's touch when writing this blog entry because all I could think of is how to manage sites, keeping the page presentable and such.

ARGH!

I seriously don't think I'd be staying long in this company. I'm suppose to work as a copywriter, damn it!

NOTICE: For the up-to-date version of this guide, please refer to this link instead.

I decided to compile all my findings regarding runes for Cabal Online as a point of reference for myself and as for anyone else who would like to take up this post as a guide.

My guide is incomplete but I will update it from time to time when I get relevant information and the time to do so.

Oh, of course, credits will be given and best of all, it is given right here, right now:

Screenshots of the game were taken by myself from CabalSEA
Original artworks are copyrights and belonging to ESTSoft

Following is the list of FAQ:

FAQ Index

1. Introduction and Basics of Runes (a.k.a. Soul Ability)
2. Introduction and Basics of Blended Runes
3. Application of Runes
4. Rune Usage and Growth
5. Rune Drop Location
6. Rune Stats, Types and Abilities
7. Rune Abilities Limitation
8. Things Needed to Learn and Develop Rune Abilities
9. Rune Charts

What are Runes?

Runes are the latest edition to the game, Cabal Online in Episode 3: Soul & Sienna, amongst other new features. The Runes (also known as Soul Ability) are similar to the pet option, whereby you can use it to learn specific options such as HP, Attack, Magic Attack and etc. that adds bonus to you permanently as long as you have learnt the Runes and is not deleted from the Soul Ability window.

To access this window, simply press U from your keyboard or alternatively click the icon circled in red as shown in the screenshot below:



Once done, you will see this window:



As you can see, the attribute skills which I had learned are Stun Resist, Down Resist, Knock-Back Resist, STR, DEX, INT and Pet EXP respectively.

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What are Blended Runes?

Blended Runes are an extension of how normal runes work. Unlike normal Runes which are completely passive, Blended Rune requires you to firstly 'activate' the skill or effect that you want in order for it to work passively. For example, having the Shock I, Defenseless I and Sword Pressure I rune learned, you can have all 3 blended runes activated at any one time as long as it is 'activated'.

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When can I use/learn Runes?

You can start learning these Runes from level 120 onwards, as this is where the first rune's level requirement is met and also this is when you start to gain Soul Ability known as Ability Experience Points (AXP). There is a bar right above the EXP bar which is yellow, instead of the EXP which is blue, as seen from the screenshot below:



It is also visible inside the Soul Ability Window (U) as shown in the screenshot below:



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How do I level up my Runes?

Runes require AP to learn and level it. In order to gain 1 AP, it is required to attain 10,000,000 AXP. The character gains AXP every time the character gains EXP. A character at any given time can store a maximum of 500 AP. Once reaching this limit, the character will not be able to gain anymore AXP nor AP until it is spent on Runes.

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Where can I find/hunt for Runes?

You can generally find runes at higher level maps and dungeons.

For Maps:

• Lakeside
• Mutant Forest
• Pontus Ferrum

For Dungeons:

• Frozen Tower of the Undead B1F
• Volcanic Citadel
• Frozen Tower of the Undead B2F
• Forgotten Temple B1F
• Forbidden Island
• Sienna Altar B1F
• Forgotten Temple B2F

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What type of Runes are there?

There are altogether 26 types of Runes at the moment for Cabal Online. The Runes, in the breakdown in groupings are:

Stats:

• HP
• MP
• STR
• INT
• DEX
• Attack
• Magic Attack
• Defense
• Attack Rate
• Defense Rate

Resistance:

• Down Resistance
• Stun Resistance
• Knock-Back Resistance

EXP:

• EXP
• Skill EXP
• Party EXP
• Pet EXP

Amp:

• Sword Skill Amp
• Magic Skill Amp

Vampiric:

• HP Steal Percentage
• HP Steal Per Hit
• MP Steal Percentage
• MP Steal Per Hit

Wealth:

• Alz Drop Rate
• Alz Drop Amount
• Alz Bomb Chance

For reference of each type of Rune after it has been learned, refer here.

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What are the limitations to the Runes I could learn?

Although there are 26 Runes in which could be very helpful if a player is given the chance to learn all of it, however a character can only learn up to 13 types of Rune at any one time.

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What do I need to learn these Runes?

The first thing would be the Rune itself, of course along with other catalysts, mainly cores. The type of cores that are needed for the skill increases depending on the growth and level of the Rune. For a more detailed information on requirements for Rune growth, refer to the Rune Growth Chart.

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Rune Charts

Runes (With Images)

Type	Image	Name	Drop Location
Stats		HP	Pontus Ferrum (Cornus)
		STR	Frozen Tower of the Undead B1F (Chest)
		INT	-
		DEX	Volcanic Citadel (Chest)
		Attack Rate	Volcanic Citadel (Any mobs)
		Defense Rate	Forbidden Island (Any mobs)
Resistances		Knock-Back Resist	Forbidden Island
		Down Resist	Frozen Tower of the Undead B2F
		Stun Resist	Volcanic Citadel

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Change Log
24th September 2010	-	Added HP, Attack Rate and Defense Rate Runes to the table
20th August 2010	-	Added Blended Runes to the guide
28th August 2009	-	Guide is up!

I'm not the first and certainly, won't be the last one to speak about how atrocious Malaysian ISP is.

Time after time being defamed by so many, yet they hardly take notice of it. This, my friends is called the tidak apa attitude.

What is a tidak apa attitude you ask?

Well, let me explain in an actual scenario from the service we are proudly 'supporting', TMNet Streamyx.

Scenario 1

Technician A:	We're suppose to be going to Z's house to fix the wiring today at 2 p.m. sharp
Technician B:	Lah, no need to worry so much. We'll make it there by 2 p.m., can one.
*** Their arrival at Z's house at 3.16 p.m. ***
Mr. Z:	It's been an hour since our last confirmed appointment.
Technician A:	We're really sorry Mr. Z.
Technician B:	Tidak apa Mr. Z, we're here aren't we?

Even halfway writing this blog post, my connection was abruptly dropped off. No drafts were saved so I managed to do a backup of this in my Word Document. See how bad our ISP is?

Telekom Malaysia has no shame at all, providing us with this kind of service and has the knack to say that they have gone through breakthrough measures to give us the best there is.

It's also sad that there's no worldwide internet governing body that would help us that are deprived of our rights on the internet and its usage to help us out. I guess we're all stranded on this stagnant land known as Malaysia.

Weird blog title but I couldn't think of anything to describe this post's topic of discussion, as it covers a huge array of things.

Firstly, what a way to kick start my first week of work. It has already officially been 1 week since I started. It was as Daniel had told me, I've got some big shoes to fill, and tons of work that I need to start funneling my energy, time and concentration on. After the departure of 2 of my colleagues, I have to start picking up where they left off, tackling a couple of clients and going to meetings (all on the first week!). I'm not ranting about this, in fact it's nice to actually see a change of scenery in my life, for that I'm truly thankful.

Onward to gaming drama! I've been in LasNoches for not too long in CabalSEA and I've met a few people in the guild (not face to face just yet, lol) but it seems there has been a debacle going on, the closest of friends I made in LN has left due to a dispute. It really isn't something I find comfortable, for my friends who have had made ties with the guild and the members were to be severed because of a conflict that could easily be solved if there has been a thorough assessment made. I would rather cherish a friendship I made over a judgment that seems equally fair. No doubt it sounds selfish of me to say so, but when it comes to trust, would you place it on someone who you've met for a day or two or on someone you've already known for a year now? Figuratively speaking, that is.

Guild conflicts, turmoils and severance of the ties that bond the members together happens often in any MMORPG but I still think the neglect for friendship exist in the decision to be completely fair. I hope things get better, I don't like this one bit. Two of my guildmates that I've known since I started playing CabalSEA have gone to Oblivion and another one of my gossip partner has gone to AK47. It's not something I like, being left stranded here but I'll respect your decisions but I would hope that there comes a resolve that everyone can be equally happy.

Moving on to my Work in Progress, I'm still writing Chapter 3 but requires a little more time than I had expected with all these commotions. Definitely not giving up on this dream, writing is my passion and will be something that I will take even to my grave.

Anyway, this has been a summary of what has been going on with me, again I truly thank you for reading this :)



P.S. Before I go, this song is going to be stuck in my head for sometime, a classic but it's worth a listen, enjoy!

It's been awhile since I last visited my blog, or even post in it. For the first half of 2010, there has been a lot of trials of life that I had to face.

I'm still a gamer, but I've only minimalized myself to social apps on Facebook, mainly Playfish games (yes, it's bias of me lol) and still playing Cabal Online. Though I've spent a lot on the latter, it is high time I start to save my money and invest on something, real.

The reason I'm posting again is because I see the need to re-express myself somewhere other than Facebook, a place where I can 'compose' my heart's melody, a place for my mind to unwind and for my voice to say the things that a one or two line status couldn't suffice.

As of 8 hours from now, a new chapter to my life will begin. Mr. Dramatic here has finally nailed himself a job and can actually contribute to the society, well sort of (while getting paid for it to boot :D).

My social network is of course expanding beyond the horizons of gamers. Meeting with people from different background, culture and ethnicity has been a refreshing change of the usual crowd I use to hangout with, though I'm not saying I didn't enjoy the times I spent with my fellow Blueserverians and Cabalists, I think I've grown to the stage where lifestyle, accomplishments and career became my mainstream topic in life.

All and all, changes are bound to happen, even more now than I would have imagined it would be. What's there to say that it might be for the better, all I can do is to go the distance. Who knows, I might see my name in lights someday.

First time back in the study mode after a quite long snooze.

Okay, where to begin? Let's start off with my final year project. What seem to be hard became an extremely impossible task or feat to be done in such duration. Having to make a flash application which uses 3d max video sounds novice in the world today, but my idea was new to Malaysia. The fact still stands - it was not impressive enough. The correspondent officer from Northumbria U (Sir Ian Bradley) was a nice bloke who told me that the markers that will be basing my project on is not on creativity, but technicality.

Ergo, I have to use lots of technical what-cha-ma-call-doohicky to impress them so I proposed incorporating the use of an external DB for the building information and making the offline application workable online (LAN, WAN, internet, whatever it's network). Wow, I just lost another screw from my head =/

Cutting down on games come automatically because my laptop is rejecting as many games as possible. CabalSEA is officially cleared once more because my lappie just 'threw up' the game, giving me constant BSODs and tons of 'medicated' reformatting. Ever since the introduction of Gameguard, CabalSEA has gone down hill and yes, I'm so not touching that game. It's a shame really, a good game in the wrong hands spells D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R.

Still, the only sane and sound thought that keeps me alive is knowing that when all of this is over, I'm going to go out there and do what I want - a junior copywriter and climbing my way up as a art director (some day), it's a long process, but I know that is something I'll give my all.

I am seriously at ends with my country. I know, this may be another nonsensical rant but what can I say, our country is full of PHAIL.

Saman is still a thing people dread to see and yes, I actually threw away the first saman issued to me because yeah, I just despise the mere look of it. It's not that I hate being saman-ed (however you spell it in the mixed language context), but knowing who that saman came from pisses me off instead.

I don't think I need to clarify how much corruption that goes on in our so called law enforcers in blue, Namwee did a fine job telling the people around the world in Youtube already how much shit they are. I'm sure within the police force there are some noble people doing their job, but I'm only associating this post to those idiots who succumb to temptation.

Actually, we have to look at what the root problem is and what causes them to be like that. A quick search through news archive shows that an average pay each officers get per month is between RM180 to RM300(source: BBC News). What the ...? Wow, that completely opened up my eyes! Okay, I'm feeling a little guilty now that I'm pinning the blames on them when actually the government is not paying them well. Those people bust their asses and put their lives on the line day after day to keep our country safe for that amount of pay? You've got to be kidding me. No wonder they lack enthusiasm to do carry out their duties. What happened to all the taxes this citizen has paid to the government went to?

Honestly, we all pay taxes and we are thinking where are they going to. The cops aren't getting paid enough, vandalism on public ammenities are usually or never fixed and more over, what is the fate of this country going to be like, 5 years from now?

Okay, let us get back to my story. See, my mom went down to MBPJ to pay the saman that I had 'neglected' to acknowledge at the sum of RM50 (or was it RM100). I paid for it with my own allowance of course as it is my fault after all. She then came to me today telling me that I had an 'extra' saman that I have failed to 'acknowledge'. What the fuck? I know I've only been issued with a saman once and I would have been more careful after that but another saman? Where? When?

She told me it had happened somewhere in June last year and that it was at PJU a.k.a. Kota Damansara. I don't recall having or being saman there and moreover, the only thing I recalled was a minor accident I had with another car but it was resolved there and then but a saman? From out of the blue? Nice going Malaysia, you handled yourself well.

Then, I started to recall a possible outcome to this. The parking system in PJU was a little screwed up. Their machines to accept coins were, in the nicest way to put it - obsolete. See, I do take part time jobs at that place and having the working hours of 10 a.m. to 5 p.m. roughly, which is 7 hours of parking time. The machine only accepted my coins till 4 p.m. that day, for some reason it just blocked its coin-inserting pussy and I have to deal with that. Also, by the time you get to work, had lunch and continued work you could have forgotten about paying the extra hours because we're doing our work no less but if that isn't a convincing reason, here's a business man's point of view - why pay that extra 60 cents when you could be working 4.50 bucks per hour extra? My employers don't charge by the hour but yeah, I think it's much better to focus on my work than rushing down to my car, pay again and maybe the machine won't fuck itself too much and open its pussy to accept coins to pay for the parking fee.

Uh, yeah this is a rant about stupidity in machines and the government, but like I said, my voice will never be heard. I'm just another person among this faceless crowd known as Satu Malaysia, pfft. Given the rightful chance, I'll pack my bags and head out of this shit hole country.

"You tak suka, you kluar"



Nice attitude by the parliament and thanks to your fine examplary, the comments for that video is also seriously fucked up. Nation unity? More like Nation unruly. Think it over people at the higher ups of Malaysia, think carefully. If you want to drive us out, don't come begging to us if your economy falls to the slums, got it?