I had an ultimatum with my dad before. It was not to my liking, but it had to happen. Regretting every single day that things had to unfold in such a way but at the very least, he knew it was his time to give up, give in. Having lost my father had affected me deeper than I would have thought. I know I'm strong enough to brace the coming storm of life's hardship, but I knew nothing of it.

I can probably cope with the changes in life for me now - I'm no longer studying, I've washed my hands off of it and I'm currently working. I'm fairly new to things, I hate the stress but am loving the new experience I get. After all, I love new things. In order for anyone to discover something new, going to places they won't usually go and making mistake from it, one has to be prone to danger and the challenges up ahead. I'm willing to take the heat, given the chance that is.

My mum has always been overprotective. There has to be a time where parents have to let go of their children, eventually. Sad to say, I won't walk down that same path like most children would. I'm an outcast. I'll be shun for the things I do, but it would have been worth it if it were to prove so many silenced statements.

I can't, no I won't take this any more. I will make a firm stand that I will relinquish myself of the burden I have succumb to bear that wasn't mean to happen in the first place. I will not tolerate your total hindrance of acceptance. I will not tolerate your selfish indulgence on lashing your emotional feud on me. I will not tolerate any more constraint that you impose unto me. I will not tolerate you any further.

From 2011 onwards, I will no longer see you. Call me selfish, call me wicked, call me cruel for all that you want but I will no longer consider you as my emotional and filial obligation.

I will move on in life, while you stay stagnant here. I won't let you hold me back because you think it feels right for you. Things happen for a reason, things change and if you can't accept that then you should very well just shrivel up and die on your own.

Dad died, we all know that. We can't turn back time and bring him back, God knows how much both sis and I would want to. He holds us together when things are beginning to fall apart, but he's no longer here, accept the fact. It's not your job to keep this family together, even if it is, you're not doing a good job so stop it before you hurt us more than you already did.

I'm making my stand, since you will never listen to us. Yes. I'm walking out on you because you chose to be selfish about things. I couldn't be fucked to care about it any more, you're about to make me go insane. It's time to say goodbye.