Really. At times, is it so hard for me to want some attention? Is it so hard for you guys to give a damn about my existence? Hmm?

Well, if you guys like to ignore me so much, I'll probably be off leading my solitary life without acknowledging you people as well.

It is not that I crave attention. I don't crave attention unless I'm in a lot of shit. Maybe that's why I prefer not to be 'nice' to people because you guys chose not to be 'nice' to me in the first place.

Go wank a sheep for all I care, you guys brought this onto yourselves(you know damn well who you guys are). I'm not giving 2 shit about you guys anymore.

Since I shifted about 4 to 5 months ago, I had no time to come online to blog about my new home due to tmnut screamyx (until now, they have the nerve to say no port).

My new home in Sunway SPK Damansara is just less than 5 minutes drive from where my previous house was. It is a gated and guarded community and most if not all of the people who live here are rich(except me :P). My house is pretty close to the guard house, which in time will be shifted a little more to the entrance(wuwu, no more added protection T_T).

Okay, now to describe my house in more detail. By default, the house have 6 rooms (2 at the first floor, 3 at the second and the grand master bedroom at the top, lol), but my parents decided to clear off the smaller room at the first floor (that room could only fit 1 bed, 1 cupboard ... that's it). I mean, even a maid could not live in that room, it is too freakin' small.

The guest room at the first floor is not really furnished and not air-conditioned, it has been booked by my mum as the ironing room where clothes are ironed. It also has a piano which my sis used to play back when she had the interest, which I sometimes do play it for the fun of it XD

The kitchen design of the home is practically the modern day's kitchen - There is the wet kitchen and the dry kitchen. The wet kitchen is also conjoined with the laundry room (without a door ...) which my mum does the laundry there (We just got a brand new washing machine, yay!)

The living room at the first floor is, in a word, HUGE!


The living room view from the dry kitchen

Okay, so it may not be as big as what most people would have thought from my flabbergast expression but I have been living in a house which had a smaller living room than this, you can't really blame me now, can you?

Okay okay, let us continue the tour and walk upstairs. What do we see next? My second living room of course!


The second living room view from the stairway

This is where I lounge around, chill to my console (a PS1, I know ... it sucks ...) or just plain watching the TV.

Now, to your right, the first one is another guest room, which has not been furnished (right up until now). The room has an air-cond, a standing fan which my dad brought from my old house, a collection of DVDs my dad collects in a box and a cupboard where all the tapes my dad used to use to record shows from TV (yes kids, tapes do exist). Pretty much a very empty room.

Then, coming back out, we shall take a tour of none other than, my room :)


My room view from the entrance


My very very messy bed :)


My PC is finally in my room, yay~

My room has a conjoined toilet, which of course I use it more often than ever (compared to the first floor's, which I think I have yet to use it).

When going back to the second living room, across of my room of course is the room where my parents like to call it, their R&R stop for the day. It is considered the master bed room for the house - has one toilet and the size of the room is equivalent to both the guest room on this floor as well as mine combined.

Another flight of steps leads up to the grand master bed room(well, what do we call it then?). This is where my sister sleeps when she returns from Singapore. Of course, to me, a big space is second when it comes to what I look for as a place where I will be spending more than 50% of my life at - making sure the place is properly protected from natural and supernatural elements.

That concludes a quick tour in my house, thank you for visiting and please, come again XD

How's the transfer speed you say? Well here it is

So yeah, for the first two weeks the line was quite alright - torrents were moving blazing fast, limewire got a song within 30 seconds or less and heck, browsing the web was tremedously quick. But the true evil comes soon after.

Now my line is exceptionally slow during these 3 periods of the day: afternoons, evenings and even to the wee hours of the nights. What the fuck? Okay, if slow connection was not bad enough, the line is getting MAJOR lagspikes and delays.

Playing Cabal was an example. After using a skill on a monster, the skill's damage and effect shows up after 5 seconds. I mean, 5 SECONDS! In 5 seconds, a guy can ejaculate and cum before he could even get a full high feel when looking at a Playboy magazine.

What a flippin' rip-off. Izzi with their '4G' connection? LIES! They are using Frequency Modulation (FM) to broadcast their connection. It is by means the worst technique ever. When it rains freakin' heavily, the line just goes into pandemonium.


The middle light (frequency reception) blinking yellow, which means there is minor disturbance in the connection


The middle light (frequency reception) blinking red, which means very poor signal

My final say on this matter is, iZZi BITES BIG WIND! Oh cruel cruel fate, how you have besieged me in a place where the ISPs are all feckin crapped up - Malaysia.

Recently (about 3 - 4 months ago), I have been getting dreams that I could fly.

Much less than a month or so, I had a dream where I was back in my old house, waking up from bed and staring at a corner. A dark shadow appeared, and my dad opened the door. For the first time in my dream, I had the guts to face usually all these terrors that haunt me in my sleep. I shouted "I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU!" back at the spectre, and to my weirdest response, the spectre did back away, and disappeared. I woke up, thinking "Wow, I stood up to my nightmare."

Any who, back to the topic at hand. Why was I having dreams that were in relations with flight? Then a dream of me standing up to my fears. What does these all mean?

It felt like a sign, but it was very vague. I just hope I can find out soon enough, and may my dreams further guide me to what I am suppose to do, why I am here - why I am still here.

Well, I just got back my fix of internet connectivity, and no, it is not that Streamyx has finally decided to ACTUALLY PLACE A PORT for my house, I subscribed to iZZi (click on the link below to find out).

Thus far of using it for 2 days, I can summarize a few things:

Torrent: Have yet to be tested
Streaming: I could say it is 80% of the rm88/mth single user's speed
Surfing: It is WAY better than surfing in the KDU PJ com lab

More investigations undergoing, until then, read safely :)

Link to iZZi: iZZi Broadband

On the 1st of March, Khoo Lian Lui - my grandmother had passed on.

Just 3 weeks after her birthday was her death day. She turns 84 on the 3rd of February. She was struck ill with the inability to control her bowels for about a year. The signs got worse and digress into a more dire situation.

She started having sudden seizure of muscle failure in her organs, which affects her appetite and diet. She started to have problems eating, or not eating at all.

About 1 week ago, I managed to see her for the last time ... She started to lose the ability to speak on Sunday, 24th February. Perhaps, that was a sign - it was time for her to go ...

On the 1st of March, about 1 a.m., my grandma started having difficulties in breathing. Sad to say, the 3 contacts whom the hospital had have had their cells turned off. She was pronounced dead at 4 a.m.

As a way of paying my last respect to you, grandma, I will dedicate this blog post as a sign that I will never forget you. Again, I will miss you always.