It is just weird how I was fooled into sweet talks.

Perhaps I was waging on hopes that would eventually crumble upon hoping too much for. Or was it that I want to give in to the fact that it would all crumble in the end?

Whatever it is, I feel that the fact remains the same - absurd and disappointing.

Sometimes it just is not worth caring too much for something when it is just going to snap you back in return. What was once warm is now cold.

I am not sure why this issue is raised now while all these while when blueserver is being sponsored by MMO or SMM where nothing is given to the mods but eveyone can work perfectly well in making Blueserver the top dota server in Malaysia? I believe that happen because all of you guys love Blueserver, you wanna make blueserver a better server than the rest. You wanna be proud for being a mod of Blueserver.

Yup, we sure as hell am proud to be moderators to a sole-striving private pvpgn in Malaysia, until it has been made official. But the very least you guys could think about is that the current and existing members who are not just the leaders of either team to be dedicated and passionate in helping to raise Blueserver once again, do look at us with a little more respect, we are not your soldiers which you could simply order us to walk into the face of war.

Where has that spirit gone? why do we need to be narrow minded just because of couple hundred bucks is given to someone for doing some additional work ? Imagine the leader have to travel by bus or Lrt to come to AMICI office which is not really convenient for most of them. Imagine they have to always be reachable by UCpro and always commited to datelines etc Imagine the stress they will be facing when their member is not doing their job as requested.

Also, add to that:
Imagine how much stupid reports ST members have to check and the ordinary members of Blueserver (players) continuously scolding us (the banlist moderators) and banning their account(s) when they did mistakes or we not performing well (in the sense of presentation and feedback)? Hmm? Have you thought about this?
Let me see ... nope, I don't think you would understand that frankly.

So, you are rewarding us, ordinary ST and FT members to endure these kinda shit and still perform at out best? Touché to that.

They cannot blame you because you are not being paid, and they have to think of solution to solve the problem cuz they are commited to UCpro to take care of the team.

Again, emphasize on CURRENT members. We stay, cause we care. Drill it into your freakin' thick skull.

Guys, try to be fair, don’t you think they deserve a small amount of allowances?
Mr.Yap once said to me, "we are now planting a tree", where the tree is refered to UCpro/BSpro.
Why are we quarrelling over fruits while there’s none at the moment? Shouldn’t we be more focused on doing the best in helping it to grow?

Eat your fucking fruits, I don't fucking care about the fruits. I just want you to treat us more decently and with respect. Got it?

Not to mention a certain someone starting the snuggling crap which I seriously hate, again. Even with the slightest pinch of power she possess she gets overwhelmed by the greed of it. Absurd.

Screw Blueserver. I've had enough with the crap that keeps coming.

A leader that lacks courage.
A colleague that likes polishing shoes.
A stakeholder treating the employees like dirt.
A disasterous concoction for hell.